
Thursday, April 30, 2009
from here to there

Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I love this passage.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
The Here and Now: Queering Authorship and Ownership

The English noun, souvenir, comes from the French verb meaning ‘to remember.’ History, or, social memory, has a tendency to simplify the complexity of events into a falsely singular version of the truth. A queer reading of memory accommodates for the possibility of alternative outcomes. Stories and photographs are souvenirs, evidence of passage through time. To queer the souvenir is to understand it not as evidence but as a prop, to open up its meaning beyond its possession. I hope to connect and complicate the exclusivity of souvenirs and memory using the writings of Gertrude Stein and Roland Barthes. After deconstructing the relationship of possession by which objects and narratives have but one meaning, I will explore how contemporary artists Tom Phillips and Tacita Dean use photographs and storytelling as props to strategize new understandings of ownership and authorship.
(...imagine 8 pages of incredibly verbose and illuminated writing here...)
I’d like to return to the word souvenir. Found at a flea market, a photograph once a souvenir from a particular autobiographical narrative becomes a part of a social and phenomenological landscape. The wealth of memory is that it is fluid and resourceful, with no scarcity in its infinite alteration. By teasing photographs and stories out of the singularity of possession we can open up the possibilities of ownership, where we defy the conventions of autonomy to foster greater notions of collective consciousness. The story and the photograph are both props that aid us in this shape-shifting process of discovery, essential to defining and redefining who we are. As Barthes writes, “I am the reference of every photograph, and this is what generates my astonishment in addressing myself to the fundamental question: why is it that I am alive here and now?"
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Enough is enough

Friday, April 24, 2009
Two stories

On the left:
Ned Tuttle + family of Omaha
He was a drunkard.
Girl- Bessie
Boy- Johnny
This girl Bessie was crossing a railroad bridge on her way to her grandmothers. A train came. She slipped down thru the ties + hung there until the train passed over her- some men came and pulled her back up.
On the right:
Judy was three days old. Picture was taken through glass cage. That's why it looks blurred. Judy now has red hair and grey eyes. She is very pink. Side view shows Japanese but front view everybody says she looks like her daddy. She has big round eyes. Also everybody thinks she is about 3 months old. She was crying when I took this picture.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Adah is waiting for Ruth, Ruth is waiting for Esther, Esther is waiting for Martha...

Tuesday, April 21, 2009
but I digress

last stop
Monday, April 20, 2009
cup of joe
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Dena. Margaret. me. Ralph.

Saturday, April 18, 2009
put into print


We are in Illinois, I think.
Friday, April 17, 2009
Go for the punctum.

"... strangely, the only thing that I tolerate, that I like, that is familiar to me, when I am photographed, is the sound of the camera. For me, the Photographer's organ is not his eye (which terrifies me) but his finger: what is linked to the trigger of the lens, to the metallic shifting of the plates."
"Of brief duration; I have no need to question my feelings in order to list the various reasons to be interested in a photograph; one can either desire the object, the landscape, the body it represents; or love or have loved the being it permits us to recognize; or to be astonished by what one sees; or else to admire or dispute the photographer's performance, etc.; but these interests are slight, heterogeneous; a certain photograph can satisfy one of them and interest me slightly; and if another photograph interests me powerfully, I should like to know what there is in it that sets me off. So it seemed that the best word to designate (temporarily) the attraction certain photographs extend upon me was advenience or even adventure. This picture advenes, that one doesn't....The photograph itself is in no way animated (I do not believe in "lifelike" photographs), but it animates me: this is what creates every adventure."
I was especially interested in Barthes' dissection, later on, of the attraction between individuals and certain photographs into two co-dependent elements: the studium and the punctum. He attributes studium "to a kind of general enthusiastic commitment, but without speical acuity," while he calls the other element punctum, a word also connotating "a sting, speck, cut, little hole-- and also a cast of the dice." Barthes caontinues, "A photograph's punctum is that accident which pricks me (but also bruises me, is poignant to me)." I think about this a lot-- how the volume of the interaction between an image and the person looking at it is erratic and often unpredictable-- how some pictures really seem to ignite a fire while other's remain inert. It's the same with any kind of image, song, or choice. The picture I am posting for today is not my own, just one of many classical black and white calendar-type nature shots. This one though, I'm almost embarrased to report, simultaneously massaged my studium and hit me in the punctum.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
patchwork

Wednesday, April 15, 2009
this week in the MFA fishtank.
http://katepruitt.blogspot.com/2009/04/mara-baldwin.html
In other news, one of our orange fish at school gave live-birth to 4 little minis the other day and we sat around and procrastinated and watched the whole thing. Not one of our most academic performances, but it felt, oddly, kind of like family.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
520 East Main Street

We rented. Our landlords name was Tony and he had two daughters that stole the good swings on my swing set when their father was talking to mine. The people in the unit next door were a couple named Gus and Theresa. Gus worked a Shell station down the street. He may or may not have been a veteran. He used to pick me up a lot and put me on his shoulders and chase me around in a our shared back yard. Our attics were connected and my parents used to tell me never to go on their side because it wasn't ours. Our basements probably also connected, because there was only one set of red builco doors leading down there from the outside, which were fun to run down when they were closed. Gus and Theresa watched a lot of tv. I have a distinct memory of being in there once with them and a really old woman sitting on one of the couches in the front room. I don't remember ever going upstairs, ever. I think Gus may have played some sort of big brass instrument. I remember their side of the house being really brown and yellow and orange. Our side was more grey and white and blue. When I was in kindergarten Gus had to go to the hospital. I think maybe for cancer, maybe for gum cancer? maybe for intestinal cancer? I made him a card-- I drew something that was supposed to be a puzzle. It was a structural drawing with lots of lines and letters all over it-- like the spawn of a crossword and tic-tac-toe. I think I remember my dad asking if I didn't want to draw Gus something different instead, but I can't remember what I decided. We were doing this activity on the side of the dining room table closest to the windows.
Gus died and Theresa had a baby, I don't remember in what order. I do remember that the baby cried a lot and that my parents often talked about how sad Theresa was. We moved to a house down the street and one block over, on Grant Avenue. When we moved out, some people with a water bed moved in (they let me jump on it once). We left the swing set because they had a kid and my parents said we would get a new one, but we never did. Sometime later we found out the dad was arrested because he may or may not have been part of the mafia. Our new house was near the hospital Gus had been when he was sick and where my brother Will was born. We drove past our old house on the way to my parents work. We drove past that Shell station every time we went downtown. He's the only person named Gus I've ever known.
Monday, April 13, 2009
a humument, meet grayand grey. grayandgrey, meet a humument.

Saturday, April 11, 2009
words with wings

"What does it mean to be oriented? This book begins with the question of orientation, of how it is that we come to find our way in a world that acquires new shapes, depending on which way we turn. If we know where we are when we turn this way or that way, then we are oriented. We have our bearings. We know what to do to get to this place or to that place. To be oriented is also to be turned toward certain objects, those that help us to find our way. These are the objects we recognize, so that when we face them we know which way we are facing. They might be landmarks or other familiar signs that give us our anchoring points. They gather on the ground, and they create a ground upon which we can gather."
Sara Ahmed, from the introduction of her book, Queer Phenomenology: Orientations, Objects, Others
stitch and bitch

Friday, April 10, 2009
flashback/flashforward

Thursday, April 9, 2009
we both live on
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
little sales ladies and other little nouns
SUPPOSE AN EYES
Suppose it is within a gate which open is open at the hour of closing summer that is to say it is so.
All the seats are needing blackening. A white dress is in sign. A soldier a real soldier has a worn lace a worn lace of different sizes that is to say if he can read, if he can read he is a size to show shutting up twenty-four.
Go red to red, laugh white.
Suppose a collapse in rubbed purr, in rubbed purr get.
Little sales ladies little sales ladies little saddles of mutton.
Little sales of leather and such beautiful beautiful, beautiful beautiful.
I'll leave it at that except to say that I took this picture of a still life I happened upon in Hooper 3 at school this morning, an arrangement which also seemed to speak about the absurdity of nouns.
Suppose it is within a gate which open is open at the hour of closing summer that is to say it is so.
All the seats are needing blackening. A white dress is in sign. A soldier a real soldier has a worn lace a worn lace of different sizes that is to say if he can read, if he can read he is a size to show shutting up twenty-four.
Go red to red, laugh white.
Suppose a collapse in rubbed purr, in rubbed purr get.
Little sales ladies little sales ladies little saddles of mutton.
Little sales of leather and such beautiful beautiful, beautiful beautiful.
I'll leave it at that except to say that I took this picture of a still life I happened upon in Hooper 3 at school this morning, an arrangement which also seemed to speak about the absurdity of nouns.
Monday, April 6, 2009
side-yard apparition (with chickens)

celebrity sighting!

Sunday, April 5, 2009
freckleface

Saturday, April 4, 2009
CSI San Francisco
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Steve's last mousy breath
Hi Mara,
We were happy to give him a good home and he seemed to be a happy little mouse. Unfortunately, he developed a tumor of some sort and passed away last fall. He didn't seem to be in any pain and was eating and playing right up to the last. Hope things go well for you in San Francisco.
Jeanne
So sad! Steve was a silly pet I relieved the family of someone I worked with at Powells Bookstore who had too many pets and children of. He lived with me at 826 Roselawn, 3525 Washington, 4327 Long and 2434 Ankeny. Right before I gave him away a cat got into my apartment and knocked down his terrarium sending it shattering accross the kitchen floor, so the last week I owned him he lived in the bathtub.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Arrivals and departures

Isabella & Arthur
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